Young and Pansexual

By Tabitha:

I’m in middle school, soon to be high school, and I think I’m pansexual, I don’t care if your a guy, girl, or don’t know. Any who, I’ve Ben struggling with this for a while and I think God doesn’t like me being the way I am, I don’t know what to do and I’m scared. I pray to him and ask him to take away these temptations that I have, but I still get crushes on girls. I cry myself to sleep fearing that on the day of judgement God will sit on his throne and look at me and say, “you will go to Hell for homosexuality, you disobeyed me and my word and shall pay for your punishment in Hell for eternity” and there I will sit because I dated a girl (want to, is it a sin to date a girl?)

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4 Responses to Young and Pansexual

  1. Logan says:

    https://couragerc.org, this is a catholic organization that I think can help you

  2. sunny says:

    hi tabitha,
    i am a 20 year old lesbian christian, and i want to send you some love+light in this time. dating/wanting to date a girl is not a sin, and there is nothing wrong with the way you are. god made you this way, and god loves you. you are made in god’s image and who you are is a reflection of god.
    also, i am a college student studying religion, and recently i’ve been reading about leviticus 18 (the passage of the bible that says homosexuality is a sin). that passage was written a very, very long time ago, by people with a set of beliefs shaped by their time and context. just because they believed that homosexuality was against god’s will, doesn’t mean you have to.
    you are important and valuable and LOVED and there is nothing wrong with what you are feeling or the way you are. please take care of yourself, know how important your existence is, and know that god loves you and will not punish you for the way that you are. i’m including my tumblr here and you can send me a message if you want to talk
    <3 <3 <3

  3. Ben says:

    Pray to the blessed Virgin and pray the rosary, it will surely help you a lot

  4. Sarah says:

    Hey Tabitha,
    I’m 23 and pansexual and Catholic. I didn’t discover my sexuality until I was in my late teens, and I didn’t fully accept myself for who I was until a couple years ago. I am not ashamed of who I am anymore, because I know that God made me in his image, and that I was born this way. Even though I am not ashamed, my parents and family still do not yet know the truth. I am afraid to tell them because, even though they are very loving and wonderful people, they still believe that homosexuality is wrong. But what helps me the most when I lose hope about any of this is that God is so much bigger than this. God is so much bigger than religion even! We can have a personal relationship with Christ and be devout Catholics and do our best to live the way he preached, but ultimately we are human, and we can never fully understand God. We can only interpret his message. Catholic teachings and scripture are of course inspired by the Lord, but they are written by humans who only understand what they can. Claiming to know exactly what the Lord wants us to do is a bit arrogant I think. God is outside of time, he is outside of anything we can fathom. And his message only comes to us through the imperfection of humanity.

    All I know for sure is that God is the ultimate good. God is love in its purest form. And humans are created in his image. God made me the way I am and I don’t think he wants me to loath a part of myself that I cannot control. Sexuality is not a choice. If it was, I would never have chosen to be pansexual, just because being straight would be easier. I would never have to worry about disappointing my family. But know that you are not bad. You are not corrupt or sinful for this part of you. And God does not hate you. God’s love is overwhelming and unfathomable. You are a child of God. And you do not need to change who you are to be loved by Him.

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