Hello! I’m Jeff (not actually). I am a senior in high school, 18 years old. I come from a very devout Catholic family and have 7 siblings.
I realized I was gay when I started to masturbate to gay porn. (About 6-7 years ago). I didn’t have friends, I was alone. I hated myself. I didn’t know why I got up every day, for years. I knew that watching gay porn was wrong, but I continued to do it. Once I couldn’t get enough, about a year ago, I had a few sexual relations with some guys. One in particular. I continued to lie to myself saying that God was ok with what I was doing. Otherwise, he wouldn’t have made me this way. That ended pretty badly and I fell harder than I ever did before; I still didn’t have friends; I was still alone.
Now, I have gone to confession and no longer lie to myself. I know and believe in what the Church truly teaches on the subject of being gay. To marry another man is contrary to its beliefs. We are all called to a life of chastity, and yes it is harder for us. But we can do it!
I have made a good friend and it has helped me a great deal this past few months. I’m praying for you all and want to thank you for all your posts; it’s nice to know there are others out there like me. God bless!