Bisexual, Catholic, and Scared

I’m a girl, and i was raised Catholic in a very devout family. I’ve gone to catholic schools for most of my education. in middle school, I realized that I was bisexual. I used to think about leaving the church because i want to be able to live fully as God made me, but I love the church too much to do that. i know the church says that I can’t ever act on these feelings that I have for other women, but i also feel like the church is wrong in the teachings on homosexuality. I know God made me like this for a reason, and I know that He loves me and that I love Him. maybe my job on earth is to make changes in the church. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared. I feel like it would be disingenuous to keep this part of myself locked up, but I don’t want to go against the church even though I think something is wrong. I don’t want to be a heretic, and I don’t want to go to hell. i have chronic depression, and this internal battle constantly drives me closer and closer to suicide. I just wish that the church would listen to people like me, actually have dialogue with people like me. I think that if they did, they wouldn’t teach the things that they do. i don’t know. im so scared and confused.

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One Response to Bisexual, Catholic, and Scared

  1. Pearl McCarthy says:

    I am Catholic and I think that it is ok for a girl to like girls if that is who you like. I am sorry that our Church teaches what it does about the LGBT’s being sinful and wrong. Our church also taught that the world was flat and excommunicated the man who said the world was round. I encourage you to be authentically who you are and know that both me and other Catholics that never miss mass on Sunday think it is ok to have whatever sexual orientation you have. One of my favorite Catholic authors was Henry Nouwen who had a friend who urged him to come out and say he was gay; Fr. Nouwen said that the Church wasn’t ready for that. God bless, Pearl

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